Had to confess a lie to Carole this a.m. Led me down a path of thought (oh boy, time for eye rolls! 🙂 ). I thought it was significant, though. Truth "in my innermost being" is peaceful. It is relaxed, and uncluttered, yet when I approach it, it feels threatening, hostile, "clangy" and anything BUT peaceful. In fact, it feels more peaceful to leave it alone (the lie).
This is a picture of my life and I think all the sons of Adam and daughters of Eve. We prefer lies and build our lives around them and see truth claims as a great threat to the sense of peace we establish in this false view of the world we construct. Truth looks harsh, hateful and non-harmonious when I am committed to stay where I am.
I am 67 years old and my most difficult area is honesty. I will lie in a heartbeat, about almost anything, but mostly to preserve some image I try to project. The really happy thing this morning is the thought that Jesus MAY be (that is MAY be! lol) starting to make me aware that peace comes from just swallowing the shame, throwing that stupid shit away, and relaxing in the truth that receiving goodness and truth brings far far far deeper peace and contentment than the fakery. It does, in fact, involve shame in admitting who I am and what I have chosen, but just like God made a covering (by shedding blood of animals) to replace the crappy covering the first couple made, so He will cover me now in a record I had nothing to do with making.
My invitation this a.m. is "come down here, the water is great"... NOT in the sense of "be like me" (not no but HELL no to that! You don't want that in any sense), but rather ask your God and savior to help you embrace TRUTH about who you are, what you are, what your need is, and how He makes all that a happy truth.
This is a picture of my life and I think all the sons of Adam and daughters of Eve. We prefer lies and build our lives around them and see truth claims as a great threat to the sense of peace we establish in this false view of the world we construct. Truth looks harsh, hateful and non-harmonious when I am committed to stay where I am.
I am 67 years old and my most difficult area is honesty. I will lie in a heartbeat, about almost anything, but mostly to preserve some image I try to project. The really happy thing this morning is the thought that Jesus MAY be (that is MAY be! lol) starting to make me aware that peace comes from just swallowing the shame, throwing that stupid shit away, and relaxing in the truth that receiving goodness and truth brings far far far deeper peace and contentment than the fakery. It does, in fact, involve shame in admitting who I am and what I have chosen, but just like God made a covering (by shedding blood of animals) to replace the crappy covering the first couple made, so He will cover me now in a record I had nothing to do with making.
My invitation this a.m. is "come down here, the water is great"... NOT in the sense of "be like me" (not no but HELL no to that! You don't want that in any sense), but rather ask your God and savior to help you embrace TRUTH about who you are, what you are, what your need is, and how He makes all that a happy truth.
