This wont be short, you likely wont read this. But if you do, you might think, "yeah, THAT'LL give someone goosebumps." Or tears. Or both.
And I dont have a video to post as only two people on Earth have this song. One is me, the other is the artist who wrote it for me as my grandfather was dying.
Let me explain...
There's a musician I like, Bob Nanna, he's been in some emo/indie bands I like and I was able to meet him when I saw him (and the band) on an anniversary tour up in Boston. Nice guy!
Well, he owns a site called DownWrite - you can pay people to write you a song. Most of the folks on there wouldnt be known to many on here, punk/indie artists, mostly.
Just over five years ago he posted on his IG that that day only, any song by him for $1. There is a service charge of 4 bucks or 5, but he said that if you requested he'd even refund that amount too...again, NICE GUY.
I was up at App State with the high school for a Model UN conference when I saw this and instantly ordered up a son. There are lots of things to click and input in, I just put, "Whatever you want" basically and was excited about 'my' song.
Then the next day I found out crushing news - my grandfather had decided to refuse all food and he was ready to go.
I had just bought my house, I missed a day in the hospital with him when I was moving in, then another waiting on a new washer to arrive, and then I was up in Boone...I just didnt know. We just thought he'd pull through.
I went straight to the hospital and decided I wasnt leaving, didnt want to miss anymore time with him.
It was basically too late, he was so high on morphine to kill the pain that we only had a couple very brief conversations, and I use that term liberally. It was mostly me crying and him telling me he loved me.
Anyway, that night I decided to write Bob, saying that I had ordered a song and that as I typed this I was in a chair beside of my grandfather dying, but his music helped, just helped relax my mind a bit. Off it went, I didnt think Id hear back.
But at a very early hour he replied. We went back and forth, I even sent a pic of me and him, and my best friend, from up in Boston.
He had a bunch of songs to do, but did mine last.
"How much light is left"
He wrote a song about me and my situation, being there as my grandfather was passing.
Ive only heard it once. It's saved on multiple harddrives, but I dont want to listen to it.
I miss my grandfather very freaking much. I hope I am making him proud.
I hate he never got to come into my home. And, now, he'll never have met my fiance/future wife.
Freaking sucks.