Your still relatively young,,,,You need to learn to do both,,,If not you will leave this world a bitter man. I really like all my online buddies but when it comes down to it we really truly don't know each other at all,,,,,,I personally cant love or hate things I don't know,,,,, Im also saying this as a person with very very few friends,,,,I have trouble bonding to people even though I cant really think of many people I dislike,,,, I know its selfish but the less people I know will be less pain for me and them when our time is up on this earth.I know it sounds strange but Ive been a really soft hearted person my whole life and I believe its a curse.There is a tiny mean streak in me but it has only showed up a few times in my 50 years on this earth.