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The military plane thread in Veterans Corner reminded me of times I can remember our front yard in a little town outside Grand Rapids, Michigan. We moved to NC when I was three, so the memories I have of that yard are all from that age and younger. In that thread, I reminisced about lying in the front yard on a sunny day and seeing a unique plane fly overhead. Later in childhood, I saw a picture of a P38 and realized that was the plane I saw from the front yard that afternoon.
Another time, I was sitting in the front yard on a sunny day when a man walked by on the sidewalk. The yard was a bit higher than the sidewalk and sloped down in a way that was perfect for little legs to hang over while laying back in the grass on the flatter part of the yard, so I was an easy arm’s reach from someone on the sidewalk. He started talking to me and I started talking back. Next thing I know, my mom came barreling out of the house, jerked me up by the arm, took me back into the house and wore my little butt out for talking to a stranger.
Mom’s behavior that morning really puzzled me for years. Our town was very small, the kind where most everyone knew most everyone else and you answered adults when they spoke to you. Chances were, your parents knew those adults. I had another memory of one of my oldest sister’s friends, would have been around 14, being murdered and her body being dumped on the train tracks just down the street from us. Not what you expect in a town like ours. It was only later in life that I realized that that teen’s murder couldn’t have happened much before that afternoon when Mom spanked me for talking to a stranger. Then, I realized that murder must have been what motivated my mom that afternoon. What seemed like an overreaction to me as a kid then made sense, especially once I had kids of my own. She wasn’t overreacting. She was making sure my body wasn’t the next one dumped on the train tracks.
As I’ve pondered this memory, I realize how many lessons there are to learn from it. What our parents do when we are kids often can’t be understood by us until decades later. Sometimes kids carry such memories as wounds, only to later understand and appreciate their parents’ motivation was love and protection. Memories like this can be hijacked along the way by well or ill intentioned people who seek to tell you how our parents wronged us in the circumstance, robbing us of the eventual understanding of what was really going on and causing us to choose to wallow in bitterness and self pity along the way. Context and motivation in these situations are critical to understanding them and we don’t always have that information, or we don’t always put the puzzle pieces together properly to understand them.
I’m not sure why I’m typing this other than to put it out there. What do you now understand from your childhood that made no sense back then? What have you learned from it?
Another time, I was sitting in the front yard on a sunny day when a man walked by on the sidewalk. The yard was a bit higher than the sidewalk and sloped down in a way that was perfect for little legs to hang over while laying back in the grass on the flatter part of the yard, so I was an easy arm’s reach from someone on the sidewalk. He started talking to me and I started talking back. Next thing I know, my mom came barreling out of the house, jerked me up by the arm, took me back into the house and wore my little butt out for talking to a stranger.
Mom’s behavior that morning really puzzled me for years. Our town was very small, the kind where most everyone knew most everyone else and you answered adults when they spoke to you. Chances were, your parents knew those adults. I had another memory of one of my oldest sister’s friends, would have been around 14, being murdered and her body being dumped on the train tracks just down the street from us. Not what you expect in a town like ours. It was only later in life that I realized that that teen’s murder couldn’t have happened much before that afternoon when Mom spanked me for talking to a stranger. Then, I realized that murder must have been what motivated my mom that afternoon. What seemed like an overreaction to me as a kid then made sense, especially once I had kids of my own. She wasn’t overreacting. She was making sure my body wasn’t the next one dumped on the train tracks.
As I’ve pondered this memory, I realize how many lessons there are to learn from it. What our parents do when we are kids often can’t be understood by us until decades later. Sometimes kids carry such memories as wounds, only to later understand and appreciate their parents’ motivation was love and protection. Memories like this can be hijacked along the way by well or ill intentioned people who seek to tell you how our parents wronged us in the circumstance, robbing us of the eventual understanding of what was really going on and causing us to choose to wallow in bitterness and self pity along the way. Context and motivation in these situations are critical to understanding them and we don’t always have that information, or we don’t always put the puzzle pieces together properly to understand them.
I’m not sure why I’m typing this other than to put it out there. What do you now understand from your childhood that made no sense back then? What have you learned from it?
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