And it seems to be coming.
This trip has been a turning point. My wife and I really opened up about how much damage the travel has done to us.
I did not realize how much I had shut down to avoid dealing with the anger over how my current employer treats me and the travel demands imposed. (Some of y'all know the expletive laden threads from before.)
This year, since February I had not been home long enough to decompress and get all the way home again mentally. I had not realized how firmly the shut down mode stayed when I got home.
That thread about my wife hiking was part of the healing again. I could hear a smile in her voice in the video clips she narrated.
Anyway, I have applied for a few jobs that fit my skill set.
Then out of the blue, a former manager at a previous employer in G'boro sent a message that she had an opening she wanted to talk to me about. She just happens to be the best manager I have had in my career. And my wife likes her too.
So when she says she has an opening and she calls me, she believes I'd be a fit. And she knows my level. So I won't get a low ball offer if I pass the interview with her staff.
This is the most positive thing that has happened on the job front since I started my current job.
I am hoping that my current boss finds out which story is true. The I am irrelevant or that I am indispensable.
I just pray that I do not choke and get super nervous during the interview. On the plus side, I'll be able to wear my "thin" suit again.
I also pray that whatever the outcome I have the strength to accept it as what I need right at this point in time regardless what I may think I need.