First I feel like a huge hypocrite posting here. I realise there's plenty of folks worse off than me and my stance on prayer and religion are well known.
But this is honestly the only place I can think of where I can puke this up in it's entirety and not draw flak and I badly need to get some distance and perspective right now.
I've made stupid choices through my life, especially in the years following my divorce. I've skipped from place to place, relationship to relationship and in doing so have slowly but surely isolated myself from so many people. I've burned through my safety nets, both monetary and otherwise. I've been remiss in keeping up with stuff.
So here I am. I'm currently unemployed (but I just got a new job, albeit potentially not see below), isolated from pretty much everyone I used to see socially, broke as a joke, my driver's licence and residency have expired (because I can't renew the former without the latter) and the Trump INS shakeup has bogged that down for potentially months. I'm broke ($22 in the bank ) and have run out of things people want to buy, but the bills keep coming. If the new work won't accept my currently expired residency as a placeholder for the one I'm waiting on no job. No job means no money and we all know where that goes.
Couple this with some health issues (no insurance for.... years now) and the fact that I'm completely at the mercy of monolithic entities that have absolutely noone they are responsible to and I am damn near at the end of my rope.
If I get the job that, buys me some breathing room and notches the tension down, but I'm terrified (literally, I've never had a panic attack in my life but I've felt like I'm low key drowning/choking/fight or flight for days now) that they'll withdraw the offer with the expired documents. If that happens I don't know what the hell I'll do.
For all those who read this far, I realise a lot of this is self inflicted. I found it hard to foster any sense of permanence or meaning after my divorce and now it's really coming back to bite me in the arse. I guess I just needed to vent, blow off even an iota of pressure. Thanks for listening.
But this is honestly the only place I can think of where I can puke this up in it's entirety and not draw flak and I badly need to get some distance and perspective right now.
I've made stupid choices through my life, especially in the years following my divorce. I've skipped from place to place, relationship to relationship and in doing so have slowly but surely isolated myself from so many people. I've burned through my safety nets, both monetary and otherwise. I've been remiss in keeping up with stuff.
So here I am. I'm currently unemployed (but I just got a new job, albeit potentially not see below), isolated from pretty much everyone I used to see socially, broke as a joke, my driver's licence and residency have expired (because I can't renew the former without the latter) and the Trump INS shakeup has bogged that down for potentially months. I'm broke ($22 in the bank ) and have run out of things people want to buy, but the bills keep coming. If the new work won't accept my currently expired residency as a placeholder for the one I'm waiting on no job. No job means no money and we all know where that goes.
Couple this with some health issues (no insurance for.... years now) and the fact that I'm completely at the mercy of monolithic entities that have absolutely noone they are responsible to and I am damn near at the end of my rope.
If I get the job that, buys me some breathing room and notches the tension down, but I'm terrified (literally, I've never had a panic attack in my life but I've felt like I'm low key drowning/choking/fight or flight for days now) that they'll withdraw the offer with the expired documents. If that happens I don't know what the hell I'll do.
For all those who read this far, I realise a lot of this is self inflicted. I found it hard to foster any sense of permanence or meaning after my divorce and now it's really coming back to bite me in the arse. I guess I just needed to vent, blow off even an iota of pressure. Thanks for listening.